I really love disappointment sometimes. I love when I make plans with my dad a week prior to the day I want to do things, but it seems like everything is more important than me. 2 days ago we were supposed to go out and do something together (get a hibachi lunch) becuase he had taken my sister and her boyfriend out last week. Well 2 days ago he made an excuse, like he always does. Then we changed our plans to go yesterday, but he, once again, cancelled and made plans for today, before I go to work. Then I wake up and he's out somewhere but it's okay, the place doesn't even open until 11. 11 approaches and he is home just in time, I was hoping to leave at 10:30 to get there at 11 because I have to leave for work at 2:30. Well, he's brought a friend home with him, and they've decided to work on finishing the basement instead. Then when he asks me when I work tomorrow and I tell him I have off I add "So let me guess, we're going tomorrow?" he goes "I'm sorry Sam, but this is just more important."
It felt like a little stab in the chest. He says things like that all the time that to a normal person wouldn't mean anything, and they wouldn't take it in such a harsh way, but to me it sounds like "Sam, this is more important than you." I know how crazy I am. I'm being insane and I know it, but it still hurts my feelings :(
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