Meh

I'm procrastinationg right now. I don't understand how I have no problems with writing creatively, but when my possible future career depends on these grades, my mind goes blank and not a word comes out. It's insane, and I hate the feeling of not controlling what is going on.

Apparently, I'm a huge control freak.

Blogging feels different than any kind of creative writing I've ever done. I feel like I'm writing in a journal (by the way, I was NEVER good about writing in those) but it sounds like my life is super boring to me. Why would any one want to read the over emotional ramblings of a stupid almost 20-year-old? Eh, beats me.

So back to the original topic!

I have four 2 page papers (thats 2 full spilling onto the 3rd) due tomorrow. I have about a paragraph of that written. Yesterday, I started a 6 page paper that was due today. I finished that shit by the way, it was like a race against time or something. I have a 10 page paper due on Thursday (don't worry! I have 5 pages of that done already... that I wrote today... that I almost pretty much copied from Wikipedia... my new Jesus) and I feel like all this stuff is coming out of nowhere when I've had WEEKS to finish the 10 pager and the four 2 page papers. I don't know where time has slipped away to! (http://www.justmommies.com/ anyone? Look up Typical Heroine. http://www.fanfiction.net/ anybody? Look up My Heroine, Paint Shop Pro anyone?) Yeah, as you can tell I am seriously lacking in the "Life" department, and you would think that with all this extra time I have on my hands not spending it with the two people I comfortable enough to consider friends that live in any kind of close proximity to me, I would be way ahead of the school curve ball. See post before this one.

I really should work on those papers now...