I'm a Horrible Student

So, I'm 19-years-old and the last thing I want to do is go to school. I've already not gone to school for a semester, which was heaven to me, but now I want nothing to do with school. I hate that my parents are MAKING me do it as well. I sit in class (much like I am right now) and do nothing but browse the Internet and chat on facebook and other various websites. I hate school, and I always have. I want nothing to do with it. Being in class is a huge waste of money, and I don't understand why I have to be here. I can do what I want to without a degree.

I have trouble focusing and paying attention. I already know I'm going to fail my math class, and now I'm probably going to fail my history one because  can't just sit down and pop out 10 pages about something I just really don't care about at all. I hate everything about school. The professors are always really nice, but that doesn't mean I can do what they ask of me. It isn't that I don't try, because I do, but I really have no drive to do things to the level that they always want. I don't want to be here, so why put in effort for it to be wasted?

I'd rather do anything than go to school. I'd rather stick sewing needles in my eyes. Maybe if I lived somewhere far, far away from where I am now, I would strive to do better, but I just don't have any motivation. I'm so scared I'm going to be stuck here in bumblefuck nowhere, Pennsylvania that I just can't focus on anything besides my impending imprisonment in this godforsaken Commonwealth. I'm just so listless and depressed all of the time that I just have no where to go and no one to turn to. I have friends that I love dearly, of course, and family, but my family doesn't understand, and my friends will think I'm being a drama queen. I hate it here, I hate where I live, I hate school,  nothing seems to make me happy anymore. Everything is so faked to me, and it seems no one knows me well enough to know that my happiness is forced. I can't stand being alone, but I don't want to be near anyone either. I can't stand the way my body looks to be, but I can't stop shoving food down my throat every single chance I get. I feel trapped, like I'm suffocating, but no one will help me. I don't want to be here. I don't want to be in this school, or any other school for that matter.

I just don't know what to do anymore.